i'm a 19 year old college student, kinda a loser. i go by Jess, any questions ask away :)

 

My Lovely Heartbreak

i knew this guy for a couple months shy of a year and since he usually had a girlfriend when i saw him i talked to him casually about my trials and tribulations whilst dating and my reasons for running far… far away from any healthy relationship for the past 2 years. He always told me how horribly he felt about the things i had gone through and that I should know what it felt like to be “treated right”. when we got together i lost my best friend of 4 years and it was gut-wrenching, fury building, desperately hard but my relationship was thriving and i was falling in love fast. we didn’t fight we laughed and kissed and made plans of a beautiful future. after 3 months only 1 “officially” dating: in a course of a week he started acting weird, distant etc. i decided to surprise him, i was going to pick him up and introduce him to my dad, a boyfriend first for me. my sister and i, in a rental car due to hers blowing up drove down the street he and his friends usually walk down. i saw him holding the hands of a 15 year old girl, one whom i had cautious feelings towards already. by the time my sister turned the car to confront him he was dipping her and full on lovingly kissing her. for a moment i saw all the same joy on his face i once put ther and it quickly turned into this sick triumphant look of “i am cheating i’m fucking awesome” until i got out of the car. his friends cleared a path the girl pathetically apologized… but him… he started to yell, angry that i wasn’t considering how horrible he felt. the next day he texted me back i was willing to take him back if he could show that he still loved me (pathetic i know) i said i love you maybe 3-5 times and never got it back finally he agreed to meet at the library where we always met he texted me 10…  TEN minutes before i got there asking if i was there… from the library, when i got there he was no where to be found. i spent about 6-7 hours i stepped outside and cried a lot. i felt worthless meaningless and that feeling has become too familiar with me i gave my heart and it wasn’t good enough for some piece of shit …

I really can’t get over how much I love Prisoner of Azkaban

itscalledagurney:

  • Sassy Potter
  • Remus preaching truth
  • Ron’s Roar                                                             
  • The Riddikulus spell
  • Remus talking about Harry’s Parents
  • Draco’s lame excuse to blow Harry kisses
  • They’re so happy <3
  • Potter Fury
  • Romione’s beginnings                                             
  • The Marauder’s Map
  • Page 394
  • Ron’s spider dream
  • Hermione’s punch
  • Harry’s beginning as a professional cockblock
  • Sirius
  • Snape being protective…always…… ;_; </3
  • The Patronus!
  • Harry & Sirius </3 (DH2 Pre-Deja Vu) (Wtf is pre-Deja Vu) (Whatevz)
  • THEIR HAIR